I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I'm passing time and not living. Living like I used to. I can't just pretend. I can't just enjoy. There are fleeting moments, but what am I supposed to do, just forget it all and link all the fleeting moments together. I feel sad that it seems I care so much, yet so many don't. I'm not even sure anyone wants to even talk to me. I'm talking about the friends I used to have. Were we ever really friends? If there's anything left, it just feels like small talk and nothing really real. So for now I guess I just pass time. I work I clean I sleep I eat I exercise I love I pray I play I watch others but will I ever really live, will I ever feel free again, will I ever feel like my kids are truly free, will I ever enjoy life like I used to. I'm not even looking for friends. Why should I when I'm not really living or know how to. I know there are others that have reached this same point as me years before me decades before me. Are they really living or just passing time. I don't want to just pass time. I don't just want friends or new friends. It's not about that. I'm not lonely. It's about something else. It's not just about self sufficiency. It's about freedom and respect. I crave it so much. Why don't others
It's a perfectly normal trauma response. It happens when people experience a profound, world-view changing, psychological violence. You were lied to, imprisoned in your home, programmed and pschologically and physically tortured.😐🤐🤐
A group of us old gals have coffee at a local coffee shop once a week. We have a grand time, laughing, teasing, sharing. Yes, politics now and then. They are not really where I am politically (Trump paranoid) and other topics as well. They are all liberals--I think. I was until 2021. Twice, other customers have come over and remarked how much fun we are having and the joy we express has cheered them up. Now, even though I want to scream sometimes, these other people have taken something from our basic group human condition of togetherness. I’ll never again be in my friend’s current headspaces but I’d do anything for them, and they would for me. I don’t believe the monsters out there can overcome these simple connections that are not really simple but highly complex at a gene and neuron level given to us by a God who loves us. The schwabs among us can’t touch it, even with what they are trying to do at a vax level. I guess you can call this hope. Every Tuesday morning I get a dose of hope with my coffee. Blessings, all, and best wishes.
It's permeating my friendships as well. Apparently I am expected to censor myself when speaking about current events....even "agreeing to disagree " doesn't cut it anymore...
Ephesians 5: 14 Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light.
15 ¶ See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise,
16 Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.
Colossians 4: 5 ¶ Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time.
6 Let your speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man.
I feel the same as you Lee, but know based on the scriptures God is only going to let it go so far…..when I say ‘it’ i’m referring to the dystopian technocratic gulag which is barreling towards us.
It takes a few years to get used to it once you've been red pilled and extracted from the Matrix. There is no going back. The positive is that you now have knowledge to make better informed decisions for the rest of your life and can pass this on to your children.
Another positive is there are so many more people snapping out of it now than ever before. Truthers were a lonely bunch for a good 15 years but now have multiplied by many orders since Covid.
I find the small things like watching movies are difficult because I can see the hidden messages all the time. I just stopped watching movies since they are all Hollywood garbage anyway. I find it's better to read old books.
Most people cannot and will not see the truth - ever. I won't try to explain why because I don't know exactly how it works. It's easier to avoid any truth topic with these people. You just end up wasting time and alienating yourself. I know it's difficult not to, but after years of attempts this is what I've learned.
Lee, I was able to find a Facebook warrior group through Dr. Christiane Northrope's encouragement as I listened to her back in 2021. I was looking for supportive people who knew the tyranny we were dealing with. Since my old friends and family were caught up in the mind control I realized I needed to reach out and find similar people who weren't. Was very lucky to join this group in Portland, OR and have developed some very close contacts who have referred me to other groups that combine being a warrior with realizing we are divine christ consciousness . It really is developing all parts of ourselves, I believe. The very best to you and much gratitude for your honest writings.
I believe there are lots of folks out here who feel the same way. The only answer I can come up with (that helps me at least some of the time) is to do what I can to deepen my connection to God, Source, my Soul, my Spirituality, whatever name you want to call it. I'm fortunate to have been raised in a religious household. There were some things in that religion that seemed "off" to me, but other things that rang true. After I left home, I connected with another spiritual tradition, so I'm fortunate to have both traditions to draw on. I think many people feel that some kind of meditation helps them connect to something deeper than this physical world. Others may find that in prayer which can be as simple as just asking for help, asking for direction. Of course, none of this is new, you're probably already familiar with all of it. And as I said, for me it helps sometimes, but other times not so much.
Thank you Lee for sharing your inner thoughts with a wide audience. I'm 62. The difference between some of us who are like you and the masses is that we didn't go along with the programing. We have within us an orientation toward freedom which is an immunity to much propaganda. What gets me through is having a passion for something. Creating something is how we exercise freedom. Best of wishes for happy holidays. You have friends you have never met- us. :-)
I would rather be alone with the virtual company of you like minded (wrt the genocide at least) than be in a room of people who will not hear the word genocide. I would give an eye-tooth for the ability to have a real converstion that I did not have to censor. Fakeness breeds fakeness. Lately, I think of all of us getting to meet, for real, in a room somewhere, and how that would be, to be with others that see this shitty thing that has been done to humanity. Sorrow shared is sorrow halved, as it's said.
I've been thinking the last couple months, after watching videos on parallel universes and mandela effects, and coupled with everything in my life being completely turned upside down for the last few years, that I'm from another universe, maybe generation, because nothing happening today makes sense to me. To me almost no one is asking these kind of questions that you are, they are not looking at all sides of an equation, 4 years on my entire family is still raving about covid and all the fear porn. They ask me and I response is I do not care, I'm not participating in this lunacy. Who cares.
In the end I'm the crazy one to them. Makes no sense to me
It’s good to write it and work through it. I feel the fog may be slow to lift for us all yet I know there is a Sun behind it, burning its way through, though I’m preparing that it may yet thicken before it thins. I’m stuck in a grind, challenged to find time for the things that I now find meaningful. Shoulda been asleep hours ago. All the best.
feel this too, think it’s the price we pay for seeing reality… for me there is no going back to blissful ignorance 💝
Yes to this. All of this.
It's a perfectly normal trauma response. It happens when people experience a profound, world-view changing, psychological violence. You were lied to, imprisoned in your home, programmed and pschologically and physically tortured.😐🤐🤐
A group of us old gals have coffee at a local coffee shop once a week. We have a grand time, laughing, teasing, sharing. Yes, politics now and then. They are not really where I am politically (Trump paranoid) and other topics as well. They are all liberals--I think. I was until 2021. Twice, other customers have come over and remarked how much fun we are having and the joy we express has cheered them up. Now, even though I want to scream sometimes, these other people have taken something from our basic group human condition of togetherness. I’ll never again be in my friend’s current headspaces but I’d do anything for them, and they would for me. I don’t believe the monsters out there can overcome these simple connections that are not really simple but highly complex at a gene and neuron level given to us by a God who loves us. The schwabs among us can’t touch it, even with what they are trying to do at a vax level. I guess you can call this hope. Every Tuesday morning I get a dose of hope with my coffee. Blessings, all, and best wishes.
It's permeating my friendships as well. Apparently I am expected to censor myself when speaking about current events....even "agreeing to disagree " doesn't cut it anymore...
Ephesians 5: 14 Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light.
15 ¶ See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise,
16 Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.
Colossians 4: 5 ¶ Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time.
6 Let your speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man.
I feel the same as you Lee, but know based on the scriptures God is only going to let it go so far…..when I say ‘it’ i’m referring to the dystopian technocratic gulag which is barreling towards us.
💯
It takes a few years to get used to it once you've been red pilled and extracted from the Matrix. There is no going back. The positive is that you now have knowledge to make better informed decisions for the rest of your life and can pass this on to your children.
Another positive is there are so many more people snapping out of it now than ever before. Truthers were a lonely bunch for a good 15 years but now have multiplied by many orders since Covid.
I find the small things like watching movies are difficult because I can see the hidden messages all the time. I just stopped watching movies since they are all Hollywood garbage anyway. I find it's better to read old books.
Most people cannot and will not see the truth - ever. I won't try to explain why because I don't know exactly how it works. It's easier to avoid any truth topic with these people. You just end up wasting time and alienating yourself. I know it's difficult not to, but after years of attempts this is what I've learned.
Lee, I was able to find a Facebook warrior group through Dr. Christiane Northrope's encouragement as I listened to her back in 2021. I was looking for supportive people who knew the tyranny we were dealing with. Since my old friends and family were caught up in the mind control I realized I needed to reach out and find similar people who weren't. Was very lucky to join this group in Portland, OR and have developed some very close contacts who have referred me to other groups that combine being a warrior with realizing we are divine christ consciousness . It really is developing all parts of ourselves, I believe. The very best to you and much gratitude for your honest writings.
I believe there are lots of folks out here who feel the same way. The only answer I can come up with (that helps me at least some of the time) is to do what I can to deepen my connection to God, Source, my Soul, my Spirituality, whatever name you want to call it. I'm fortunate to have been raised in a religious household. There were some things in that religion that seemed "off" to me, but other things that rang true. After I left home, I connected with another spiritual tradition, so I'm fortunate to have both traditions to draw on. I think many people feel that some kind of meditation helps them connect to something deeper than this physical world. Others may find that in prayer which can be as simple as just asking for help, asking for direction. Of course, none of this is new, you're probably already familiar with all of it. And as I said, for me it helps sometimes, but other times not so much.
I can understand what you say🙏🏻
Thank you Lee for sharing your inner thoughts with a wide audience. I'm 62. The difference between some of us who are like you and the masses is that we didn't go along with the programing. We have within us an orientation toward freedom which is an immunity to much propaganda. What gets me through is having a passion for something. Creating something is how we exercise freedom. Best of wishes for happy holidays. You have friends you have never met- us. :-)
I would rather be alone with the virtual company of you like minded (wrt the genocide at least) than be in a room of people who will not hear the word genocide. I would give an eye-tooth for the ability to have a real converstion that I did not have to censor. Fakeness breeds fakeness. Lately, I think of all of us getting to meet, for real, in a room somewhere, and how that would be, to be with others that see this shitty thing that has been done to humanity. Sorrow shared is sorrow halved, as it's said.
🎯❤️
I've been thinking the last couple months, after watching videos on parallel universes and mandela effects, and coupled with everything in my life being completely turned upside down for the last few years, that I'm from another universe, maybe generation, because nothing happening today makes sense to me. To me almost no one is asking these kind of questions that you are, they are not looking at all sides of an equation, 4 years on my entire family is still raving about covid and all the fear porn. They ask me and I response is I do not care, I'm not participating in this lunacy. Who cares.
In the end I'm the crazy one to them. Makes no sense to me
It’s good to write it and work through it. I feel the fog may be slow to lift for us all yet I know there is a Sun behind it, burning its way through, though I’m preparing that it may yet thicken before it thins. I’m stuck in a grind, challenged to find time for the things that I now find meaningful. Shoulda been asleep hours ago. All the best.